My silence makes me a thief or a beggar [a plastic non-returnable bottle]. The oyster jaws clamp stubbornly trapping the often soft and liquid tongue (now a lump of dough in my mouth that cannot be swallowed or spit out). Even a small explanation of intimidation struggles for release only to float free and burst silent and useless as a soap bubble. . . . Being too wary of misstep may result in no movement forward. [There are no deadly bungles - nothing that cannot be forgiven.] . . . As is usually the case words in my head that won't fit in my mouth flow easily onto nonjudging paper.